Emotions

Mother's Day is an interesting day for me. I have many emotions that swirl around inside my head.

I miss my mom. This is the second Mother's Day without her. As each day passes I think I miss her more. If that is even possible. My mom was a great mother so full of love and empathy. Things I hope to teach my children. She was a also a great grandmother. She loved Sophie and Sam so much. She lived her love for them but it was so evident the day she said good-bye to them. It is something I will never forget.

I am so thankful to be a mom. Becoming a mother was a long emotional journey for me. So many Mother's Days I sat and cried - wondering if I would ever be a mother. The joy and happiness Sophie and Sam bring me is the greatest gift. I know it sounds strange but I always felt like I was going to do something really big. (You know like be a super model or something). I now know that something big was adoption and mothering my precious Sophie and sweet Sam. This was God's plan for me all along. His big special plan - to give me everything I ever dreamed possible.

I am grateful to two very special mothers in Russia. There is no way I can know how they feel. I only hope that somewhere inside their hearts they know that the babies they carried and birthed are safe, happy, smart, and loved beyond imagination. I hope they know they were part of God's special plan for me. And I am forever grateful for their gifts.

Thankful, sadness, joy, happiness, hope, love - the list could go on and on.

I suppose that is a good thing. My life as mother is full and for that I say praise God.

Above photo taken by Wendy Hardin of Love and Pictures.